Life

As I hear the tortured screams of my children, I wonder, what would life be like??? Yes, I said it and I meant it. I sometimes cant contain myself when I get looks from other moms or especially women without children when I am being completely honest. Hello, my name is stressed out mama, and I am addicted to honesty. I try to tone it down, sometimes based on my surroundings, but often it just comes out in complete swoosh of verbal diarrhea. I cant help it, and so I have decided, maybe I need a blog to quench this appetite of shocking others. Only a select few seem to really get it, and just laugh with me, others dont really know what to do....especially my mother and husband. haha Is she serious?? Does she need help?? Believe me, I have help, named Dr therapist, but I still need to shock people because it gives me satisfaction. It gives me control in some way. It gives me an element of joy. I kind of like the uncomfortable laughs, and secretly I am testing you. Oh no, my secret is out. I am absolutely testing people all the time, you may have already passed my test and dont get tested anymore, but I still probably do it from time to time. What am I testing? I test to see what reaction I can get out people, and how will they react to me during my worst? When I really need someone, will they be there? I get pretty honest during those times. Although, shockingly, I am the LEAST confrontational person you will ever meet, but Dr therapist is working on that with me, and I quite rarely think badly of people. I just like to test reactions. It really is a life experiement for me that I really enjoy. Oh my goodness, I have found a hobby! I will have to tell Dr therapist about that one. She will be so proud. She already knows about my skill, but I always have said my hobby is that I dont have a hobby. I do though, I have a talent! I am talented at verbal diarrhea and testing reactions. hmmm I will ponder that. As you can see, you are getting to know me. I started out on a subject of wondering what would life be like, to a completely different topic. Welcome to my life. Maybe I will get back to that one.